It’s so hard to have everything around you shift. Having to surround yourself with unfamiliar things and feelings; trying to minimize one of your biggest causes of pain. But as people say, “To heal a wound you need to stop touching it,” so that’s what I’ll do. That’ll be my most cherished goal at the moment, and I will succeed to accomplish it and work to learn how to move on and cease to give more importance to other people’s happiness than my own.
My happiness is all I wish for right now. I want to fill the empty parts of my heart with new positive feelings and memories. I want to be that girl I once used to be. I want to be able to lay on my bed, look at the ceiling and remember all the good things going on rather than the bad ones. I want to meet new people that won’t be toxic to me. I want to be able to forgive easily and not hold on to grudges or hard feelings. I want to not be as selfish as of right now. I want to be the better version of the old me.